"I CHOSE TO LOVE YOU AND LET GO"

[Dedicated to My Beautiful Girl, Kizia, Who Made Her Transition
October 1, 2017]

​You were in My Heart and My Soul. You Brought Me Joy and Made Me Whole. The Journey We Travelled was Long, Filled With Hardship which Made Us Strong. We Made it Through Sickness and Health. Loving Each Other was Our Wealth.
You Stayed with Me when I Was Down. You Helped Me Turn My Life Around. When You were Ill, I Sat with You,
Asking the Angels What To Do. I Cried So Many Helpless Tears. I Pleaded to Have Three More Years. Losing You was My Big Concern. There was No Thought of What I'd Learn.
Four More Years were Given to Me. You Lost Your Sight and Could Not See. I Led You Gently Every Day, Speaking Softly to Guide Your Way. Your Cancer Came as a Huge Shock. It Took Time for Me to Take Stock. One Morning When I Looked at You,
Loving You, I Knew What To Do. I Chose to Love You and Let  Go, Knowing You're in My Heart and Soul.

"WHERE ARE YOU?"

​I am at your door calling your name
I shout at you “This isn’t a game”
You stand beside me sensing my pain
You say “I know”, soft as gentle rain
 
I feel my tears slowly start to fall
My heart is shattered – I start to bawl
You reach out to touch my swollen eyes
You know I’ll have to soon realize
 
Your time on earth has come to an end
I lost my truest and dearest friend
You left me without saying “Goodbye”
I did not know the how, when or why
 
You know my heart is heavy and sad
You know I’ll treasure the time we had
I know you are in a peaceful place
I feel your presence, so full of grace
 
You say “I am here Bren, don’t be blue”
To give me strength when I think of you
I know your words are to comfort me
You’re now at Peace and totally Free
 
I remember all the times we shared
How we knew the depth each other cared
There was no judgment on either part
We spoke honestly from our own heart
 
You were my confidante and best friend
Our conversations would never end
You gently guided me through my day
“Divine Order” is the only way
 
Your heart was the purest I have known
The unconditional love you’ve shown
Me and everyone else in your world
“Come on Over, Give me a Hug Girl”
 
I love you with my whole heart, Dear June
Where are you now? Perhaps near the moon!
Wherever it is, I feel you near
We’re in each other’s eternal sphere!
 
This poem is dedicated to my Beautiful Darling June, who made her transition to the next dimension on June 14, 2016 at home, in her own bed.  We were “aunties” together sharing the same niece who made her transition at the age of 22 from suicide on July 26, 2005.

"YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, MOM"

(This is Dedicated to My Mom, Barbara Solis, Who Made Her Journey “From Here
to Eternity” on February 2, 2010.  Love You, Mom!)

When I was just a wee little girl
And you held me in your arms
I was captive to your lovely smile
I was captured by your charms

When I fell down and got badly burnt
You kissed me and held me tight
You smelled so good from your nice perfume
You tucked me in bed at night

You loved to read me nursery rhymes
You showed me what things to cook
You played the piano every day
I turned pages of your book

Your illness took you away from me
I wanted to hold you tight
I cried so hard, saying “Where’s My Mom?”
I knew that things just weren’t right

You went back to school, got your degree
You learned to drive, worked on ships
We were roommates for a little while
We went on several trips

You moved to Spain and got your own place
Where you could live and study
You taught me things I’d never have known
Nor learned from anybody

I loved your beauty, patience and grace
Looking after your stray cats
Music and cats meant the world to you
The smile on your face showed that

We lived most of our lives, miles apart
But spoke a lot of the time
We didn’t really have much to say
But our words just flowed, like rhyme

For two years before you left this earth
Our talks were full of insight
The Angels guided you to find peace
You knew “Going Home” was right

We spoke every day before you died
We talked about everything
But on the day you left to “Go Home”
We said our phones would not ring

When my sister called and said you’d died
My heart was so heartbroken
I cried many tears throughout that night
Knowing we hadn’t spoken

I felt your presence for many months
After you left from my world
We had several conversations
I was now your little girl

​So with these words I speak from my soul
As the tears run down my face
I’m holding you in my heart with love
You’re in the Angels’ Embrace  

"GOODBYE DAD"​

(This is Dedicated to My Dad Who Passed Away on January 8, 2007)

​FOR TODAY, YOU ARE IN MY LIFE

IN THIS MOMENT, THERE IS NO STRIFE

I HOLD YOUR HAND, AS YOU NEAR THE END

YOU TAKE A BREATH, AS YOU ROUND THE BEND

I KISS YOUR CHEEK, AS I TURN TO GO
​
I LOVE YOU DADDY, MORE THAN YOU’LL KNOW
 

"FOR JANAYA"

(This is Dedicated to My Niece Who Committed Suicide on
July 26, 2005 at the Age of 22)

MY TEARS ARE GENTLY FALLING
FROM MY HEART THAT’S JUST BEEN SHATTERED
MY WORLD COMPLETELY BROKEN
NOTHING NOW WILL EVER MATTER
 
YOU LEFT THE EARTH SO QUICKLY
I NEVER GOT TO SAY GOODBYE
THEN I LOOK UP IN THE HEAVENS
KNOWING THERE WAS ONLY YOU AND I
 
YOUR VOICE WAS SOFTLY WHISPERING
EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY
JUST TRUST YOUR INTUITION
AND LET THE ANGELS GUIDE YOUR WAY
 
THE PAST HAS LONG BEEN OVER
THE FUTURE HAS NOT YET ARRIVED
BE FULLY IN THIS MOMENT
SO THAT YOU TRULY FEEL ALIVE

"HEROES"

(H.E.R.O.E.S.) – Helping Everyone Reach Optimum Enlightenment for Self-Realization

​I have participated in two Fire Walking Seminars, which for me, were very spiritual and enlightening experiences. At the first seminar, many years ago, I was the very last person to walk across the hot coals and we had been given the "final walk" announcement three times before I made up my mind to say "I Can Do It".  My heart was pounding out of my chest and I KNEW I had to do this for my own spiritual growth.  I took my first step and proceeded across the hot coals, which by this time were mostly dark black, with some hot orange embers still burning.  I lost focus around the last 2 second point and ended up with a blister on one of my toes on its bottom, nothing serious, but it showed me what happens when I lose focus on my mission.  I end up with a negative result or have something happen that impedes my progress.

I chose to participate in a Fire Walking Seminar two years later and with the support and encouragement of a trusted friend, shown with me in this photo, we attended the seminar together.  I KNEW I needed to rebuild my confidence in what was a "Momentous Spiritual Experience" for me the first time fire walking, although I had not overcome my FEAR completely then.  This time, I was the first person to walk and I walked 9 times, 6 by myself and 3 with my friend and HERO.  I kept my focus all 9 times as I walked on the coals, burning hot orange flames and when I did my last walk the coals were still glowing orange, hardly any black, and I KNEW I did not need to wait until the very last moment to take my next step on this journey.  I HAD OVERCOME MY FEAR OF WALKING ON FIRE!

This spiritual experience showed me that through my thoughts I can allow myself to believe in whatever it is I want to achieve.  My thoughts are an extremely powerful source and are the conduit for me to believe "I CAN DO IT". The Angels  channeled to me the following quote, which is in my book "In This Moment Angels' Sweet Reflections":   "We Must Believe the Belief that "We Are Able to Do, Be or Have Anything We Are Striving to Achieve".  Through Our Belief We Achieve."  We are ALL here to be HEROES for each other by "Helping Everyone Reach Optimum Enlightenment for Self-Realization".

"MY THANKSGIVING"

As I reflect on the meaning of “Thanksgiving” for me this upcoming Canadian Thanksgiving weekend, my desire is to share with you an inspirational message.  No matter where we reside in the world, or what time of year we celebrate this holiday, (for those countries and people who do this), it is nice to be reminded of how important Gratitude and Thanksgiving, “Giving Thanks” are.  We can all be instruments of resounding “Joyful Thanks”.  We can share our Blessings of Love, Peace, Joy, Gratitude, and Happiness with each other to  offer warmth, compassion, tolerance and understanding to those we come in contact with. First and foremost, I am so grateful that I am fully cognitive and aware enough to be able to be thankful, and have gratitude in my heart.  I have been blessed with having been both a food bank recipient for 6 months in 1996-1997, experiencing what it is like to have almost no food, (certainly nothing nutritional), as well as having had enough food on my table and been able to cook up a beautiful Thanksgiving dinner with all the trimmings in past years. This year, I am thankful I can spend Thanksgiving with my beloved dog, Kizia, who was poisoned over many months by accident  in 2012-2013 and was almost put down on January 4, 2013.  Due to the Angels’ intervention, she is with me today.  I am thankful the Angels are allowing me to be their messenger to deliver their words of Inspiration of Love, Peace, Joy, Gratitude, and Happiness to you. I am thankful for my physical health, my emotional health, my spiritual well-being and my ability to review my thought processes so that I am able to let go of thoughts that no longer create constructive results, and understand and accept that I am a spiritual being in human form.  I am grateful to know that I am growing and evolving every day and am so thankful I am enlightened enough to know there is always room “to be better and  to do more”.  I want to extend my heartfelt thanks and gratitude for each one of you in my circle of friends and wish you all the most wonderful weekend.  Happy Thanksgiving to Everyone!

"WE REMEMBER YOU!"

TO THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE GONE TO HEAVEN
FROM THE WARS YOU BATTLED, YOUR LIVES WERE GIVEN
WE THANK YOU FOR BEING SO VERY BRAVE
EVEN THOUGH YOU ENDED UP IN THE GRAVE
 
AND TO THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE HEAR TO TELL
OF HOW YOUR COMRADES FOUGHT BRAVELY AND FELL
WE SALUTE AND THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU
FOR PUTTING OTHERS FIRST IN ALL YOU DO
 
SERVING AND PROTECTING THE REST OF US
WHEN THE DAYS WERE HARD, LONG AND VERY TOUGH
YOUR COURAGE AND BRAVERY ARE NOTHING NEW
YOU FOUGHT WITH VALOUR, NOT THINKING OF YOU
 
WE HONOUR YOU ALL ON THIS SPECIAL DAY
REMEMBERING YOU EACH, IN OUR OWN WAY
WE TAKE MOMENTS TODAY TO REMEMBER
YOUR PAIN AND SUFFERING|
​- 11 NOVEMBER